FALLING HEART

　　Camilla gets to her room and closes the door with her back resting against it. Her heart is still racing from what had almost happened between her and Ethan. She pulls her bottom lip into her mouth and closes her eyes, fantasizing about what could have happened. He could have kissed her and she would have finally had his lips on her for real. It won't be the dreams and imagination anymore. It will be happening for real and even if nothing comes out of it in the end, she will always live on the memories of lips.

　　She is so sure his lips would have tasted like buttercream on a lazy Sunday. They look so soft and full, fuck! She will melt if it ever happened. All the long daydreams she keeps having might have an impact on real life. Damn, she is thinking too much about this. Ethan is everywhere in her head and she doesn't think it is healthy anymore. She will have to wash him out of her head. She can't continue like this at a point she will have to let go.

　　Camilla heaves a long sigh.

　　Officially, her crush for him is no longer just an ordinary crush, she was starting to develop something else for Ethan and she didn't care anymore if Jessie was his girlfriend or not. As far as she knows, Jessie is forcing herself on him. Ethan cares about her. She closes her eyes and remembers the way she felt electric sizzles on her skin the moment their hands touched. Shit!

　　"Pull yourself together, Camilla Louisa!" She taps the side of her head slightly. She needs to stay focused. Boys are bad news.

　　If she starts concentrating all her attention thinks., she will end up losing focus on her own life. She will lose everything because it is true that boys are actually bad news.

　　But can her mind let go?

　　All these she feels, are inky charades. One day she will have to let it go. Because she came into his life as a fraudster and she will remain one as long as her father is still in that condition. She can never pay for his fees with a regular job unless she wants him dead and that's a total impossibility.

　　What can she do?

　　Her heart is falling. She has started to think you much about him and it isn't healthy. She can't let go of her life to be with him and he won't like her anymore if he found out what she is?

　　With a heavy heart, she moves to the bed and lies flat, heaving again.

　　Maybe she should stop thinking about all the bad things and just concentrate on the present. She should be happy with what she has and just breathe.

　　she has never been in an actual relationship before not because the boys never came, but it was because she never said them any attention. She saw them as time wasted and dream changers. She wanted her focus to remain unwavering. She wanted to work hard and take care of her father until he last breathe. So, going out on dates with boys became the last thing on her list a long time ago, when her parents were alive and well, her mum had encouraged her to get a boyfriend, but none tickled her fancy. There was always something about them that was a turn-off for her. A couple of boys had come her way and tried their luck but her heart never beat for them. When her parents got into an accident she didn't even consider them again. Her heartbeat is gone completely oblivious to the existence of men. She was more of a neutral survivor than a woman in need of male company. But when she met Ethan, the story was different. Her heart feels different. It beats different when he is around her. When he smiles at something silly she has done, she feels it flip. When their bodies brush against each other, she feels electric sizzles. He is something she had never experienced before. The experience is amazing.

　　"Enjoy it, while you can!" She whispers to the air happily.

　　With a smile on her face, Camilla falls asleep. As her consciousness slip further away she sees her Ethan there waiting for her with open arms. She runs to him and he embraces her, holding her so tight like he has no one else but her. They start falling and even in her sleep, she smiles. It feels so good to be in someone's arms and feel so loved. They both land on a bed and she falls asleep in her dream. Camilla forgets about all her problems, all her doubt and all she dreams of are the promises of a life she can't have.

　　A knock on the door pulls her out of her peaceful sleep. She checks the time and she is shocked. She has been sleeping for almost two hours!

　　Stretching her hands, she slowly gets up from her large bed and moves to unlock the door. She releases a soft gasp as she sees who is at the door.

　　"I woke you again, didn't I?" He asks her and she feels like her brains will fold if he keeps talking with that tone of voice that sends shivers down her toes.

　　"No, " she says sounding as breathless as a pregnant woman. She rests on the door frame feeling light-headed all of a sudden.

　　'What do you do to me, Ethan?' She wonders in her head

　　"May I?" He asks politely. He is always so sweet and kind to her, she can't even imagine what she could have done to the heavens to bring a man like him to her life, despite all the stealing she has done in the entire Besaadi.

　　He is even asking for permission to come into a part of his own house. Who is this guy?

　　Unable to respond, she nods, as she slowly moves away from the door frame creating space for him to come through.

　　Ethan walks confidently to her bed and seats himself. There is a grin on his face and she can't help but feel butterflies start to fickle her stomach.

　　"I have something to tell you, Camilla." The way he calls her name is always the best version she has heard anywhere. It is the sexiest even.

　　She is standing away from the bed, not knowing what to do. Should she move forward or sit on the floor. Or should she pick up the chair by the dressing table?

　　The questions were never-ending and she keeps standing, waiting for help from the heavens.

　　Ethan as if reading the dilemma in her head, taps the side close to him. "Come seat here, " he says.

　　Their eyes lock and she moves like a puppet being moved around by its master without being able to do anything. But most at their bidding.

　　"I am actually, going back to work right now, " Ethan tells her as soon as she settles on the bed space beside him.

　　"Why?" She panics, her heart squeezing. She has been hoping he will stay longer and it will give the two of them enough time to learn to know one another -maybe even truly to know if the crush she feels towards him is just a teenage thing and it meant nothing. Camilla will have to let him go then. Close the case and forget it ever happened.

　　"I mean why tonight. Can't you go there tomorrow morning insisted?!" Camilla whines.

　　She is feeling bad that she used him all day and now rather than sleep. He has to go to work without even having a siesta.

　　"But Ethan you have to take care of yourself first. If you are not at your hundred percent, you won't be able to work well. Go tomorrow instead."

　　Ethan wants to complain but the way she begs him to stay, makes his resolve drop. The people in the town can wait for another day, they will be fine because he can't refuse his mate.

　　"Okay, I'll stay for the night. But I will leave in the morning," Ethan assures her and she clasps her hands in excitement.

　　He will do anything as long as he is sure that thing will make her happy. He will even move mountains for her. she is his mate and she deserves to get anything and whatever she wants. Seeing her smile is what he craved every morning when he wakes up.

　　Ethan chuckles at her excitement.

　　"Less I forget, you can call your friend. What's that her name again?" Ethan thinks

　　"Lisa?" Camilla wonders. That is the only friend of hers, she told Ethan about.

　　"Yes, Lisa." Ethan snaps his fingers in excitement, happy that he finally got what he has been searching for.

　　"Is something wrong?" She wonders out loud. Why is he so interested in her friend?

　　"Oh no, there is nothing wrong. Just that, I have spoken to Peter. She can come over and you both can have fun," Ethan says watching how her face morphs into happiness and then double excitement. Camilla doesn't know if she should scream or stay calm. Lisa coming over is the best news ever. They will have so much fun in the house. Jessie will finally be able to get someone to face that had her time. When Ethan had mentioned it earlier, she was excited but being told she can come tomorrow was entirely a different level of joy.

　　Ethan keeps smiling, enjoying her joy. Knowing that he is the reason for the happiness radiating off of her makes him very happy. He is starting to make progress with her and that's a really good thing. By the time he returns he will make it official. He will show her so much love, she will not be able to reject him.

　　"I should leave you to rest then. I only wanted to inform you about that," Ethan says. But in his heart, he is happy he can at least sit this close to her. He doesn't know when next he returned.

　　"Thank you for everything!" She manages to say as Ethan gets up from the bed.

　　"Good night," he whispers before pulling the door close.

　　Camilla quickly picks out her phone and chats Lisa up. Immediately the message reads received she calls at once.

　　"What is this you are telling me?" She shrieks on the phone like a teenager.

　　"It is exactly what you read, Lisa! You will be staying with me in this fucking house!" Camilla exclaims in glee.

　　"Can I come right now?" Lisa asks and Camilla burst into laughter.

　　"Stop it! Come in by tomorrow. It's too late right now, " Camilla giggles.

　　"Okay, let me go pack my bags!"