It's been around two and a half months since the funeral. It's hard. During the day while I do the paper work, meetings, duties, organizing...I'm fine. I'm too busy to think about him. But when I'm alone at night and in our bed, thats when I feel the pain again. It's not as bad as it was before. But it's still there. It still hurts. However, I haven't had a nightmare in about month. I take that as a sign of improvement.

I am currently in a meeting with the crescent ...