I lye down on the couch and look up at the ceiling. I know I am a cold person. I don't feel much emotions at all. But there is a reason. I've trained myself to not feel much for protection. If I didn't feel much then I was protected from the wall and I can't find the off button. There are days where I wish I could feel things, but I just can't. Even if I try my hardest to feel...I can't. Even with my wife. Don't get me wrong! I did love Eleanor, but not in the way she deserved. I couldn't give ...