I would have kept screaming, until my mind went, until I couldn't breathe. It was too much, way too much. I went through hell and found myself right back in it. For the first time since the whole thing started I fell apart and let myself go.

I don't know if I would have gotten myself stopped if Jared hadn't snapped me out of it.

He jerked the wheel hard to the left, digging the seatbelt into me, throwing me into the car door.

"Syd!" He yelled. "Stop!"

I ...