CAMI SITS DOWN WITH a cup of hot tea in front of her. I have a cold beer in front of me.

She doesn't waste time, and looks me straight in the eyes as she starts talking. "What embarrasses me most about that night is that I was warned, and I still walked up those stairs with you. For a long time, I looked back and kicked myself again and again. Then I realized that Joel came out of the deal. I needed to tell you that. It was stupid on my part, but I got Joel, so I refuse to ...