Waiting is the hardest part. I spend a lot of time thinking about these last months. About my life before Austin. I hated school, but it was a way to get out from under my brother's thumb and I was willing to do anything-even sit in a classroom learning a subject I detest.

I would go back to school and learn for Austin, though. If he plans to marry me, he loves me. I think he just doesn't understand love. I'll spend the rest of our lives teaching him.

It's almost midnight ...