KELLAN'S P. O. V

Numbness was a good thing.

A safe thing.

And to stay numb, I worked myself past possible limits. I reached exhaustion, and I worked past it, like a mindless machine. 

I was skipping meals, living off caffeine and fury and....pain. For someone like me, someone who lost the most beautiful thing in his life, there were no breaks for me. Sleep was something I couldn't afford.

Day after day, I just... worked.

It was the only way I knew how to survive since ...