NICOLE

I can't believe this is happening.

I just can't.

When I heard the door open, I smelled Roman—it's not that I didn't. He has a very distinctive smell that drives me insane, and it's a scent I'd never in my life forget.

But I thought it was all in my head.

When he started touching me, I genuinely thought that it was Sebastian who was behind me. I assumed that my mind was putting Roman in his place. I thought it was all in my head.

I'm not using it as an excuse, though.

Because I ...