Slowly, with shivering limbs, I move forward. At a point, I stop to ask myself… Is this right? Should I really go ahead with it? What if Eryis is still alive and opening that freezer will kill her? But then something asks me… ‘Are you just scared she’s still alive in your head, and seeing her actually dead will kill her there too?’

Maybe…

Yes. Definitely.

I’m scared of that. I want her to remain alive in my head forever. No, I NEED her to remain alive in my head. If she’s no ...