Anna's POV

I was watching a movie with Derek, and I just couldn't get into it. My head hurt, and my body ached badly. I shifted again, but no comfort came from the bed.

I was hurting everywhere. Pain, and I was hot, like burning hot.

"Little one," Derek said, looking at me worried as I whimpered.

"I hurt," I said, shifting again. My body was fighting me, and I wanted to cry.

"I'm mind-linking the doctor," he said, rubbing my back. I whimper as another pain hits and my vision blurs. What the fuck is happening?

"Hold on, Anna, he is coming," he soothes. I'm literally crying because it hurts, and it finally registered that I'm in heat. My eyes go wide as Derek smells my arousal. His wolf growls, and I feel my panties dampen. No, this can't be happening right now; we have so much unresolved.

"Fuck," Derek growls, pulling me into his body. We both moan as he kisses me and starts pulling off my clothes. He roars at the doctor and staff to leave the floor, and soon I'm under him. He pulls off my loungewear pants and goes between my legs. Oh goddess, I think this feels nice.

"Oh," I gasped as he started licking at my swollen pussy lips. "Yes, it feels really good, doesn't it?" My wolf moans, thrusting her pussy up.

"Fuck you, you taste exquisite," he growls, and I arch, moaning. Nora moans more as he licks and nibbles at my core.

"Derek," I sigh, then cry out as he digs in. I feel sucking, nibbling, and licking at my pussy, clit, and thighs. I cum fast, and he growls but keeps eating me out. All I can do is grip the sheet and cry out for mercy, but he gives none. "Fuck yes," Nora moans. "He is a beast." 2

I feel him move up my body, and soon my nipples are attacked by tongue, teeth, and lips. The sucking on them makes me cum again before he is kissing a hot trail up to my lips. When he is at my entrance, we are too far gone to think clearly or stop. Derek thrust in, and I cried out at the extremely full feeling and the pinch of pain. Nora cries out, gripping the ground. His thrust is hard, fast, and rough as we complete our mating. I mark him, or I should say Nora marked him, as a horny bitch. She loves every moment, but I just feel sad. "Anna," she says sadly, "we have to try." Easy for you to say. I want to sob. You wanted him to fuck us, and he is. "I would rather not be doing this now," I tell her sadly.

We both cum and collapse on our bed, a hot, sweaty mess. We are both panting as we lie breathing heavily. I feel him pull me close, and kisses are peppered all over my face, neck, and lips. He pulls me to straddle him, and I sink down on his hard cock and moan; it feels bigger and deeper this way. "Yes," Nora moans, making me move in a way to make it feel good for us both.

"Fuck Anna," he moans, holding my hips in a tight grip.

"Derek," I gasp and moan as I move up and down on his cock. His big hands grip my hips, and he guides me at a faster pace. It feels so damn good, and I cum without warning. Derek moans loudly and lets go inside me. After a few more rounds we lay gasping. I feel so many emotions, and one is I just want to cry loud, ugly, fucking crying.

"Are you okay, little one?" he asked, brushing my hair back.

"Yes, I'm okay, thanks," I said, looking up at the ceiling. I feel uncertainty about all we just did, and I hate doubting anything. My wolf purred about it all, but I ignored her as Derek pulled me into his arms to hold. I go easy and lie on his chest and sigh, happy but still sad. Sad that this all feels fake. I never knew it could feel so damn incredible with your mate, but a part feels if the heat didn't hit, we wouldn't have even gotten to this part. Heat makes you mate to ensure pups. I feel him stroke his fingers up and down my back and hip softly. I just want him to stop...stop trying to be affectionate because I'm not fucking Ellie and never will be.

"Anna Nora says, horrified, 'He knows the difference; he does. You have to get past this, please,'" she begs.

"That was an incredible little one," he says, kissing my head. I hold in a sigh. A sad sigh I want to release but don't. I'm not her; I never will be.

"Yes, it sure was," I say, trying not to sigh in sadness and embarrassment.

I'm embarrassed we mated so fast with all our unresolved issues, but going into heat ensures you mate and bond closer. It also ensures you have pups, and I stiffen at the thought. Fuck me, pups, in a loveless mating relationship. Just fucking great.

We're going to bring a pup or pups into a loveless relationship.

"Little one, are you in pain?" He sounds worried. Yeah, why wouldn't I be? You will get your pups and will love them but not me. "Oh, Anna," Nora cries in my head.

"No, I'm good, thanks," I say, making my body relax. He kisses my forehead. Why does he keep kissing me? I complain to Nora; he does know it isn't his whore, right?

"You just stiffened up; I got worried," he mumbled. Yeah, sure you were, I think, wanting to just sleep.

"I'm fine, just thinking," I utter softly. He kisses my head and holds me tighter to him. I don't move or try to as he holds me. A mate holding you should bring comfort, but this brings tears that I hold in, and I bite my lip hard, drawing blood. I want to sob my heartache out.

"Don't worry no more, little one; we will figure everything out." I'm not sure I believe him, but I guess I can try.

I nod against his chest, and he kisses me again but trails them to my lips. He scoops me up and heads to the bathroom. Looks like shower fun is in order.

Nora purrs, and I just stay quiet once again. I'd rather he not know how bad my doubt is about our mate relationship. How bad I feel about everything because if I even think about it, I will sob. An ugly cry that will make me feel even worse.

He doesn't have any idea how badly he destroyed me.