Ezren’s word stayed with me long after I had left the boys to go have a quiet time by myself.

I say I didn’t want her, but every fiber of my being needed her. Rider wanted her as much as I did. Burying my cock a hundred times in a day didn’t make it better either. Instead, it drove me mad when I realized I wasn’t getting hard anymore for Vera or any other woman except when I thought of Lyra.

‘Are you still mad at me?’ I asked Rider

He had been sulking for days now, and I knew I had ...