The sky looked like it was holding its tears for me.Heavy clouds rolled over the hills, gray and low, like they were about to fall down to earth.I stood at the edge of the training field, my arms wrapped around my chest as I watched the warriors below get ready for war.War is a very famous thing in Crescent Pack. In fact, we are popular for being so brave at war, but this time, this isn't just another war.This time, it is a war against the rogue packs—wild wolves and other creatures with nothing to lose and no rules to follow.The rogues don’t fight for honor, they fight to destroy.And Kade… my Kade… is leading the war.My heart thudded painfully as I watched him move through the field. He was checking weapons, nodding at warriors, commanding with that strong, steady voice of his.He looked so calm and strong, like nothing could scare him. And that's true—he's one of the bravest Alphas in the country.But I am still terrified.I have seen him go to battles before, but this is different.The rogues are dangerous, very dangerous. The war is surely going to be darker and bloodier than any other.I couldn't bear watching him anymore. I felt like I could break down any moment from now.I left and walked back to his office. On my way, the once lovely pack was now dull—very dull—with people scared and preparing for the war.I got in and stood near the window.I didn’t hear him or know when he walked up behind me, but I felt him.His presence always wrapped around me even before his hands ever did.“Hey, Flower,” he said softly, but this time my heart didn't melt at the nickname he had given me ever since we were in middle school. Instead, I felt it drop. What if I never get to hear it from his sweet mouth again?I turned around slowly, “You’re really going?”He nodded, his gray eyes holding mine. “I have to, Flower.”I bit my lower lip hard, “You don’t have to. You’re Alpha—you could order someone else to go.”He gave me a small, sad smile, “An Alpha leads from the front in war, especially a bloody one like this. I can't just send anyone… you know your love is not a coward.”I looked down at my sandals, trying to blink back tears.He touched my arms gently, pulling me closer till my hands landed on his chest.“You don’t have to be scared for me,” he whispered.“I’m not trying to be, but,” I said with my voice shaking, “I’m scared, Kade. What if I never get to see you again? What if you die?”He pressed his forehead against mine, and his hot breath heated my face up.“I won’t. I swear I won’t.”“You don’t know that!” I choked on my saliva. “These are rogues. They’ll tear anything apart.”His warm and large hands moved to my waist, “Zoe, look at me.”I did.“I’m coming back. And when I do… I promise I’m making you mine—fully. No more waiting, no more holding back.”“What are you saying?” I felt my heart jump in my chest.“I’m saying I’ll be claiming you, in front of the whole pack. You’ll be my Luna—officially and forever.”I didn’t know what to say. I just let my tears fall freely.My lips trembled as I whispered, “I love you so much, Kade, and—”Kade shut me up with a kiss—his teeth grazed my lower lip and he sucked on it. I opened up, and his tongue slid in.My arms circled around his neck, pulling him in deeper.When he pulled away, I was already breathless.“I love you more than anything, Flower,” he said, his eyes locked with mine. “More than the pack. More than my own life.”I didn’t want to waste the time we had left. I just wanted him to have me.I wanted to have him too. I wanted to do the things in my head with him.My hands gripped his shirt, and I pulled him toward the couch.We stumbled onto it, our mouths still on each other.I just needed to feel him—all of him. His warmth, his strength.I needed something to hold onto, something real, because I didn’t know if this would be our last moment.Our clothes dropped to the floor before I knew it. His wet lips trailed an imaginary line from my neck to my breasts. My back arched automatically as I felt electric sparks shoot through my body from his touch.“D… do you really want us to do this, Zoe?” he asked with a very low and sexy voice. How could I say no?Even though I’d always dreamed of my first sex being the most romantic one—and not on the couch of my mate's office—I didn't care now. I just wanted him.I gave a short nod.He shot a small but sweet smile.My eyes shut tightly as I felt his huge dick enter my virgin hole. Pain shot through my veins. My fingers couldn't grab the couch, so they moved to his back, digging in deeply.I tried so hard to take it all, but a loud scream escaped from my lips. He pulled out immediately.I had never seen fear on his face, but today, I saw it.“Did I go too deep?” he asked, worried.“Y… yes. Just go slowly, okay?” I whispered, and he grabbed my hand in his. In no time, I got used to his dick, and I found myself enjoying each thrust.Afterward, I lay on his chest, listening to his heartbeat.My eyes stared at the ceiling, and I just felt… everything. We did it. We had our first sex. I had my first ever sex.I was having mixed feelings about it, and the pain throbbing between my legs made things worse.He adjusted a little, and I winced as soon as my hips touched.He kissed the top of my head. “I don’t want to leave you like this.”“Then don’t.”He smiled faintly. “If I had a choice, I wouldn’t.”The silence that followed was sad and heavy.An hour later, and after five times of chasing back his Beta, he got up and dressed.I sat on the edge of the couch, trying to stay calm, even though I wanted to scream and beg him not to go.Kade grabbed his sword, his bag. Then he turned back to me. He walked to the couch and threw his big coat over me.“I’ll come back for you, my Luna.”I stood slowly, putting on the coat with my heart swelling. “You better come back, or I swear I’ll hunt you down and drag you back myself.”He laughed quietly, then crossed the room and kissed me one last time.A kiss that burned into my soul.Then he walked out the door, his shoulders strong, his back straight, his men following behind.I stood at the doorway, watching him disappear into the foggy woods for the final preparation.“I love you,” I whispered, even though he couldn’t hear me.And I hoped—no, I prayed—that he’d come back.Because I didn’t just love him.He was my whole heart.