I dashed into my room and shut the door, I genuinely couldn't keep it in, which is why I finally confessed it to him. Why am I only weeping? And why did I just develop feelings for my brother? Many boys wish to go out with me, yet my heart desires only my brother. I simply detest everything. I got onto the bed and shut my eyes firmly, yet I still couldn't erase the blank expression he wore after I revealed my feelings to him. I realize I made a mistake, yet my emotions... I have no idea and I prefer not to contemplate it. I rose from my bed and hurried to the bathroom to wash my face, then returned to bed and shut my eyes to sleep.........

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Believe's POV

I anticipated this event would occur......I anticipated it. I was extremely fearful to confront it, yet it eventually occurred. I noticed her tears and lost my composure, but ultimately I succeeded in pretending nothing occurred. She said that she loves me, but in what way? We are brothers and sisters from the same parents. I must acknowledge that I harbor some unusual feelings for her, yet I have pushed myself to forget them. What is causing this to occur for us? I simply cannot comprehend. I yanked my hair like a crazy person, and I needed to tell her I liked someone, but I couldn’t due to her gaze.

Urghhh damn.. she was incredibly gorgeous, with dark hair, hazel eyes, and flawless, fair skin.

DAMN it, I swore due to my feelings; she's my sister, and that won't ever change. She will surely have a boyfriend later on, but I feel uneasy when I consider her future and relationships.

As her older brother, I shouldn't feel this way, yet I can't seem to shake these strange emotions I have for her. How did we end up like this? I truly adored her in every way; she meant everything to me. I was the person who looked after her when she was young. I truly liked her and adored her; she was simply so adorable that it made me like her even further.

In my family, everyone cared for her more than they cared for me. She was the essence of my father's existence. She served as the guardian angel for this family. It ought to be different, but what thoughts occupy my mind right now? Lisa has just admitted her feelings to me, but I am her sibling.

Damn...

my thoughts are a chaotic jumble.. out of nowhere I got a call, I picked up my phone and saw it was Jane. Jane was the daughter of a friend of my father and I was aware she had feelings for me, but I never recognized them since Lisa occupied my thoughts.

I picked up the phone.

"Hello," I began.

"Hello Believe, how have you been?" She spoke to me in a sugary tone, but I really disliked her sweet tone.

"Okay, what prompted your call?" I inquired while she remained quiet for a brief period before responding.

"Mmmm Believe, I really like you, so how about dinner tomorrow?" I’m referring solely to you and me. "Leave Lisa behind; I believe you get the idea." What on earth was that? I really didn't have any feelings for Jane; I should simply refuse. With that in mind, I intended to say no, but suddenly an idea crossed my mind. I should just give it a shot since Lisa and I are a disaster if I mentioned that I'm going on a date. Lisa will surely overlook her emotions, and I will attempt to do likewise.

"Alright." I agreed, yet my heart aches with that idea. I didn't want to cause pain to Lisa. She will surely be upset if she discovers I consented to a date with Jane.

"Seriously?" Believe, I really appreciate you providing me with this opportunity. Let’s get together tomorrow. I'll meet you at the school. "Bye" Jane was thrilled that I concurred with her, but I pity her because I'm merely using her to distract myself from my emotions. I remained silent and simply ended the call. I don't want to harm Lisa. She’s my sister, yet I must make her let go of those emotions, and I must do the same as well. Ultimately, I compelled myself to fall asleep...

In the morning, I got up and cleaned myself, then I swiftly prepared breakfast for Lisa and headed to her room to wake her. I tapped on her door.

"Lisa, get up, it's time for school." "Let’s go." Immediately after I completed, the door swung open. I stood still when I spotted her. I believe she has been weeping all night and her eyes are swollen. I truly sensed my heart hurting for her.

"I'll go downstairs." Lisa spoke to me in a strained voice and shut the door. I truly have no idea what to do, and I was simply a rather unfortunate man. I descended and waited for Lisa. At last, she descended in a short strap dress adorned with sunflowers. Truly beautiful. I caught myself gazing at her as if she were my girlfriend, but I promptly compelled myself to turn away. Then Lisa arrived and took a seat while she gazed at me.

"Can we go see Beauty and the Beast tonight?" "A few days ago, a new film came out." She suddenly began to speak, and I let out a sigh since I believed she wouldn’t engage with me, but then she did, which is wonderful.

"What's the time?" I inquired with a grin while Lisa smiled back at me.

"6 p.m. to 9 p.m." When she mentioned that, I recalled I had made plans with Jane for dinner, and she specified it would just be the two of us. Urghh

"Are we able to go tomorrow?" "I have plans for tonight." I spoke while gazing at her. All of a sudden, her smile disappeared, and she turned her gaze toward me. I realized it was due to this being the first instance where I disagreed with her.

"Why is that?" "What needs to be done?" Lisa gazed at me with her lovely eyes, yet they were filled with concern and pain.

"I must head out for dinner this evening." I spoke while turning my gaze from her eyes.

"Believe?" "Who are you going out with?" Her voice was trembling with fear, and I gazed at her. Her eyes contained an emotion that I couldn’t understand. I have no idea what she was considering, but I could tell she was upset due to my rejection.

"Jane... We're going out for dinner tonight." Lisa let go of the sandwich immediately after I spoke to her. Then she gazed at me, and I could see that she was on the verge of tears, yet she held them back.

"Why is that?" "Why all of a sudden?" I listened to her shattered voice.

"Not abruptly Lisa..." I simply concurred with her since I need to have a girlfriend. "I'm already eighteen," I said with a forced smile. My heart aches because I realized it would cause her great pain, but I had no alternatives.

"Believe, you mentioned that you don't have any girl you like." "Is it due to my saying I love you yesterday?" Lisa's eyes filled with tears. My eyes became red due to her tears as well. Why am I merely causing her pain? She is my sole sibling.

"Just don't dwell on it, Lisa." "Complete your breakfast." I compelled myself to remain composed.

"Okay, I don't have feelings for you, Believe." Kindly refrain from accompanying her. "I have no liking for her." My body stiffened when she told me she doesn't love me. A mix of unusual emotions intertwined with pain coursed through my body due to her remarks. She tried everything to prevent me, but if I didn't go, it would truly cause issues since Lisa would deepen her feelings. I was aware that Jane and Lisa didn't get along well. Ugh. What actions should I take? Damn. I glanced at Lisa once more, and she was in tears....

"I made a promise to her, Lisa." "I will accompany you tomorrow." I have merely betrayed my heart. Lisa remained silent, merely bowing her head as she got up to depart.

"Complete your breakfast, Lisa." I remarked as she took a seat once more and began to eat. She was very compliant regarding me. I adored her for that. She swiftly consumed all of it and waited for me. I swiftly completed my breakfast and cleaned the dishes.

"Let's move." I grasped her hand and exited the house. Lisa avoided making eye contact with me the whole time. She simply walked, and my heart was genuinely hurting due to the action I just took. The moment we arrived at the school, Jane approached me beaming, but her smile didn't compare to Lisa's.

"Good morning Believe, could you arrive at 6 p.m? I’d like to watch a movie as well." Jane laughed softly while talking to me. I noticed she glanced at Lisa while smirking at her. Lisa simply stared at me with a pained expression. I averted my gaze to avoid seeing that expression on her face since it causes me pain.

"Alright." I remarked while Jane smiled alongside me. I noticed the expression on Lisa's face; she appeared utterly shattered, her lovely eyes brimming with tears that never fell.