Lisa was managing it as usual while biting her lips. Abruptly, she bowed her head while moving away. I watched her as she faded from my view. My heart urged me to approach her and say I wouldn't accompany Jane, yet I chose not to act on it.

Believe. Mmmm..is it alright if we spend the night at my place? "My mom and dad aren't home today." I glanced at Jane and noticed she was turning red. I understood what she meant. She was simply asking me to sleep with her. I truly felt repulsed.

"I said 'no,' and then I departed." Jane attempted to speak, but I paid her no attention.

During lunch, I spotted Jane chatting with some boys, so I hurried to the canteen before she noticed me. If she spotted me, she would surely attempt to be with me. I truly can't stand it and all I wanted was to see Lisa. I didn't spot Lisa during lunch, so I approached her friend to ask if she knew her whereabouts, and she mentioned that Lisa was in the music room, so I hurried over to find her.

I noticed my sister was simply gazing out the window as she played the violin. I honestly felt sorrowful seeing her in this state since I realized it was entirely my fault.

"Lisa.." I spoke while she faced me. She smiled at me and then went on playing her violin.

"Believe, would you mind playing the piano for me?" Lisa unexpectedly spoke while gazing at me with a grin.

"Why not." So, I took my seat at the piano and began to play her favorite songs. She grinned and paid close attention to it. Once I had finished, she got up and approached me.

My entire body felt lifeless as her gentle lips touched mine. My heart was pounding incredibly quickly. My sister just kissed me, and I enjoyed it too; I couldn't grasp what took place or why. I stood still without making any movement. Lisa was much shorter than I was. She was roughly five feet and six inches tall, thus she pulled me down by my collar and kissed me.

A whirlwind of emotions flooded my mind, but fear overcame me, terrifying me deeply; my thoughts urged me to kiss her back, yet I was frozen, taken aback by what she had done. I just became really stupid.

...Ugh.

I gradually glanced at Lisa. She was simply pressing her cherry lips to mine; she didn’t even know how to kiss since it was both our first kisses. I was gazing at Lisa, her eyes shut as she kissed my lips. I didn’t want this… and what is happening?

She is my sibling... Without warning, Lisa sank her teeth into my lower lip, and that small gesture caused me to lose all semblance of rational thought.

I put my hand on her waist and drew her nearer, then placed my other hand at the back of her head as I intensified the kiss; Lisa swiftly encircled my neck with her arms. I've already lost my mind, so the sole thing I concentrate on is the kiss.

Lisa shoved me and forced me to sit on the stool I had occupied earlier, then she climbed onto my lap and settled in. I pressed my tongue into Seyah's mouth and kissed her intensely; her fingers danced through my hair, which felt amazing, but then I suddenly recalled what I was doing..

"Wh…what's going on?" I inquired of Lisa as I set her down from my lap, her eyes shining with something unusual…

"I care for you, Believe." "Please don't choose Jane." My body became immobilized once more due to her words; I remained quiet for several moments before I spoke.

"No..Lisa, we can't continue like this. I'm your brother and I'm accompanying her today." Consequently, I exited the music room.

Once school finished, I waited for Lisa, and after a short while, she came out. She never glanced at me while she was looking down the entire time.

Ugh..

Once we got into the house, Lisa dashed to her room. I realize I'm engaging in actions that may harm her, but I can't inflict more pain, so I need to allow her to move on from those emotions...

DAMN, why has our life turned out this way?

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Lisa's POV

I dashed into my room and secured the door. I wish for him not to leave this evening.

How come?

He actually consented to watch a film with her, but for what reason?

Did he intend to harm me for expressing my love for him?

So many inquiries are tormenting me. I dislike Jane, and she feels the same about me; Believe is fully aware, yet he still sided with her over me. It truly pains me to think that he consented to date a girl.

I don't know what happened to me. I simply kissed him; my feelings overwhelmed me, so I kissed him. I understand that he is my brother, yet I have romantic emotions for him.

I don't understand why that occurred..... yet he returned the kiss while drawing me nearer and then again shoved me away.

It truly felt amazing to kiss him, something I've always desired to do. I have always wished to be his first kiss, and I finally achieved it, yet I'm still in tears because he chose Jane. I always disliked arguing with Believe.

I consistently paid attention to him, so I didn't want him to think that I was defying him. I simply can't grasp why this occurred to me; he was my own sibling. I compelled myself to put it out of my mind and headed to the bathroom, where I took a shower and changed into cozy clothes, then I checked the time and saw it was 5:00 p.m.

Believe will meet Jane...my heart aches because I wish he wouldn't be with other girls, but I really can't prevent him. I remained patient since I was aware that he would surely leave regardless of my pleas for him to stay.

At 5:30 p.m., I heard a knock on my door; I recognized it was Believe.

"Lisa...I’m leaving now." I prepared dinner for you. "Have an early dinner and go to bed early; I'll be running late, so please don't wait." My heart broke into fragments when he spoke those words. Is he going to be delayed? Is he planning to sleep with that woman? Seriously, Believe? Why is he causing me pain? Tears streamed down my face; I truly didn't want to speak to him since he was aware of my feelings, yet he’s choosing to be with someone else, which implies he doesn't care for me, right? I didn’t respond to him since I was simply in tears. It pains me to consider that he’ll be with that Jane this evening. I wish he wouldn't leave, but how can I prevent him? He is certainly going, so I chose to remain quiet.

"Lisa?" Believe continued to speak.

"Okay, I’m leaving now." He departed with that. I listened to his footsteps as they diminished. Thus, he departed...

I can't figure out how to ease the hurt in my heart. I'm honestly not sure. All at once, I began to weep openly. I simply desire him and I adore him.

Why can't he simply grasp it?

I understand..

I understand we are siblings, but I can't let go and I love him. I’m unsure what he’s thinking, but in my heart, I love him deeply. Believe left 10 minutes ago, so I hurried out of my room and dashed outside.

I don't want him to leave; I should simply prevent him. I wasn't able to locate him. I recalled Jane mentioning she wanted to see a film, so I hurried to the theater and it was already 5:55 p.m.

My entire body became paralyzed....

It was Believe and Jane.

Jane's arm encircled Believe's arm, and she beamed with joy as if she had conquered everything, yet the most hurtful part was witnessing Believe's grin. He was grinning at Jane as well.

I observed them while I remained standing there like a fool. Abruptly, Jane pressed her lips to Believe's cheek. Tears streamed down my face as I observed their actions. I can't figure out why my heart aches this badly. It truly pains me; I never imagined my emotions for him would cause me this much anguish. I truly wished to end my life.

They departed and walked into the hall; I glanced at the bulletin board and saw they're going to see Beauty and the Beast.. seriously?

I simply chuckled at my own expense.

No words could express my suffering. I chose to go home because I didn't want to witness them together. I entered the dining room and noticed that Believe had prepared a meal for me, along with a note.