My heart had grown cold. Or, more accurately, I forced myself to be that way. Days have come by, and I know I’m back to my old self. I’m like a computer, programmed to be this way.

"Ahh! Fvck! Faster please! Fvck me harder! "

I set our set up like what it’s supposed to be. No strings attached, no feelings involved. I want to protect my heart before somebody could even hurt it, or maybe myself.

His thrust went faster than I wished. He satisfied me with his own way of pleasing me as usual. ...