Feelings fade. What I feel for him doesn't. So I don’t know what this is anymore.

”Mommy, Pierce brought me into this huge play ground and then he bought me toys. But I told him that you’ll get mad so I said he should just buy me one.” My son told me stories about their errands a while ago.

I smiled raw and nodded at him. I patted his head and kissed the crown of his head. I saw Pierce’s eyes piercing into me. Like he’s reading my expression and he knows something’s up.

”And ...