I had doubts as the weight of every uncertainty weighs heavily on me. It looked like it was pulling down from being myself. I felt the walls of my destiny were choking me, and they seemed to close in around my doubts. I wanted to know more about June, Rose, her husband, Uncle Jonah, the Martinez Gang, and even Marvin. I could not tell what was happening to me as I suddenly felt that the babies and I were not safe in the ecosystem I found myself.

I reached out to Larry and asked for a meeting. I ...