It must be almost impossible for her. Everything in her life - including me - is all wrapped up within the pain she carries. Even our most intimate moments are entangled in our fear of how she might react.

Moving on from what happened, can't be easy but she's the bravest woman I know.

"I don't want you to worry," she tells me but it's easier said than done.

I've watched her leave me enough times to know I don't want to face that again.

"Please Jarrod."

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