I locked myself up in my room as soon as I got home....

I entered straight to my bathroom , my dull reflection stared back at me in the mirror, I turned on the tap and splash cold water over my face and hair....

What was wrong with me....

I've never felt so humiliated and disgusted with myself like I did right now......

I knew it was exactly what he wants, I knew i was feeling the exact way he wanted but that didn't ease the shame and disappointment i felt at myself

I hated him so much, how ...