My eyes followed him everywhere now, and I knew he noticed, and it irritated him, but oddly enough, I loved that he was irritated with me.

As weird and stupid as it sounds, I was desperate for any form of attention at all from that man, so I grasped whatever he gave me.

I wondered if it was because of things like this that boys avoided fucking virgins. It probably wasn’t the same with all the girls. I even thought I would not cling to my first, but here I was clinging to every little thing ...