Steam rose all around me as I settled into the tub, sinking into the fragrant water and leaning back until my head rested against a folded towel. If I closed my eyes, I could almost imagine being able to fully relax and enjoy this. I could almost pretend our lives weren't in jeopardy yet again.

The water was miraculous, soothing the tightness in my muscles almost on contact. Nothing, not even the longest run I'd ever done in track, had ever left me with this all-over exhaustion, this ...