I shuffled on my feet outside the door, feeling a little bit lightheaded. The floor seemed to tilt slightly beneath me. I'd only taken one shot before coming here, just one, to steady my nerves. I shouldn't be drunk from that. But my head felt fuzzy and my limbs felt loose, like they didn't quite belong to me.

The security guard beside me cleared his throat. "Aren't you going to knock?"

I gave him a strained smile, knowing it probably looked more like a grimace. "Just give me a minute to ...