Third coffee of the day and it wasn't even 5am. I had been up for ages. Something felt different about today, I felt different.

The feeling in the pit of my stomach wouldn't shift. I slept fine last night, was out cold as soon as my head hit the pillow. But today, right now I felt really anxious.

Was it because he was home?

Was I anxious because I wasn't sure if he would stay?

What if he up and left again?

He did it once before, what's stopping him from doing it again?

Running a hand over ...