'I'm gay. I always...I mean I knew there was something but I didn't know what, or maybe I didn't want to know. I was scared, I think. I mean...I mean I grew up in a house with...you know my folks. They make everything about what they think it should be and I think I was afraid I would hurt them or lose them so I did what I was supposed to do but...but nothing ever felt right.

"Larry hardly ever touches me. He's too drunk or he's too busy being mean to me or he's passed out and maybe that is why ...