I stared at my phone like it was going to come to life and murder me for all of the things in my search history. That felt less scary than what I was actually doing though.

'You already decided on it, Anais, you gotta go through with this,' I thought to myself.

I steeled my nerves and opened the Lush app, wincing at all the unread messages I had.

Everyone had messaged me. EVERYONE. Even Luna, who was still apologizing for what happened.

She sent ...