- LOUISA -

I lean against the wall for a long time after we hang up.

I deserved that. I deserved every word he said. And I know I'm going to be carrying around the shame of this for a long time.

I close my eyes and try to find the emptiness deep inside of me. I know it's buried in there somewhere. The hard part is over, and now I just want to drown in numbness for a while.

But it's not enough.

I don't stop to think about what ...