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Chapter 162

Juan Pov.

She immediately dropped the folded shirt in her hands and rushed to my side. Concern was evident in her voice.

"Okay, let me help you get there safely," she offered. She reached for my arm with practiced ease.

Her instinctive caregiving both touched and troubled me. While her devotion was undeniably sweet, I worried she was defining herself primarily as my caretaker rather than my equal.

"Is that what they taught her at that school?" I wondered darkly. "To serve without question? To put others' needs before her own safety and happiness?"

I patted her cheeks affectionately. I used the gesture to maintain my blind facade while actually enjoying the opportunity to touch her soft skin.

"Don't worry about me. I'm not gonna fall again. Just gonna fall in love," I assured her with a playful smile. I deliberately lightened the mood with gentle humor.

I couldn't resist leaning forward to place a soft kiss on her cheek. The innocent gesture caused her to blush adorably.

Her reaction revealed so much about her. Despite whatever hardships she'd endured, she maintained an endearing innocence when it came to romantic attention.

"You should focus on finishing up in here," I suggested casually. "I can find my way to Mom's room perfectly fine - it's right next door after all."

I heard her hesitate. Clearly torn between respecting my desire for independence and her instinct to protect me.

"Are you absolutely sure?" she asked uncertainly. "I don't mind helping you."

I nodded firmly. "Positive. Besides, I need to speak with her privately about some... personal matters."

That last part wasn't entirely a lie. My questions about Sunny's letters definitely qualified as personal.

I walked my way slowly. I maintained the careful pace of a blind man navigating by memory and touch.

The performance felt increasingly dishonest with each passing hour. It created a hollow sensation in my chest despite the practical reasons for maintaining the deception.

I was searching for my mom. I expected she would be nearby. Her protective instincts had always kept her close when any of her children needed her.

I knew my mom loved me so much. More than I probably deserved given how difficult I'd been during my recovery.

So, instinctively I knocked on the door of the room next to mine. I called out softly, "Mom? Are you in there?"

I used my enhanced hearing. I detected the subtle sounds of papers being shuffled and a chair being pushed back.

"Just a moment, Juan," her familiar voice called. This was followed by approaching footsteps.

The care in her voice reminded me of countless childhood moments. When she'd tended my scraped knees and bruised pride with equal tenderness despite not being my biological mother.

And yes, my instinct was right. She opened the door of the room immediately. Her expression brightened upon seeing me standing independently.

Without hesitation, she reached for my hand. She assumed I needed guidance.

"Son, why are you walking alone? Where's Sunny?" Her concern was evident. Though her voice carried a note of pride at seeing me navigate without assistance.

I could see the subtle signs of aging that had developed during my ten years of unconsciousness. Fine lines around her eyes that deepened when she smiled. A few strands of silver threading through her dark hair.

These changes reminded me painfully of the years I'd lost. The burden my condition had placed on my family.

"I convinced her to let me practice walking alone," I explained. I squeezed her hand affectionately. "She's finishing up some things in my room."

I pulled my mom into a gentle hug. I noticed with surprise how much taller I'd grown during my comatose years.

"You're way too short than me now, Isabella," I observed with a teasing smile. I used the playful tone that had characterized our relationship before my accident.

The height difference was striking. I now towered over her petite frame by more than a foot. A physical manifestation of the years that had passed while I remained unaware.

"When did this happen?" I wondered silently. "Was I still growing while unconscious? Or had I already reached this height before the accident?"

These missing pieces of my own development created a disorienting sense of disconnection from my own body.

"I feel like I'm wearing someone else's skin sometimes," I admitted quietly. "Like I went to sleep a teenager and woke up fully grown without experiencing the transition."

She rubbed my back soothingly. A mother's instinctive gesture of comfort that hadn't changed despite the years.

I could feel slight tremors in her body. Betraying the emotion she tried to contain.

Though she attempted to hide it, I could hear the soft sounds of her weeping against my chest.

"Yes, son," she managed through her tears. Her voice was thick with emotion that seemed to encompass both joy at my recovery and lingering grief for the years we'd lost.

The complex mixture of feelings mirrored my own tumultuous emotions. Gratitude for my second chance alongside anger at the decade stolen from us.

"You shot up like a weed during your late teens," she added. She attempted levity despite her tears. "Your father blamed it on werewolf genetics finally asserting themselves. We had to special order longer beds for you twice in one year."

I whispered reassuringly. I wanted to ease the pain my condition had clearly caused her over the years.

"It's okay, I'm fine now. Thank you for taking care of me."

The simple words felt woefully inadequate given the decade of devotion she'd shown. Bathing me. Reading to me. Maintaining hope when medical professionals suggested acceptance of permanent unconsciousness.

What could possibly express sufficient gratitude for such unfailing love?

"I don't know how to thank you properly," I continued. My own voice grew husky with emotion. "Dad told me how you fought for me when doctors suggested giving up. How you researched experimental treatments. Tried everything possible to bring me back. I wouldn't be here without you, Mom."

She pulled my hand gently. She led me into the room while discreetly wiping away her tears.

"Come inside, there's something I need to show you," she invited. Her tone suggested important matters awaited discussion.

The room appeared to be a makeshift office. With papers scattered across a small desk and several filing boxes stacked in the corner.

She shut the door behind us firmly. The decisive click of the latch suggested privacy was necessary for whatever she planned to share.

"Make yourself comfortable," she offered. She gestured toward a plush armchair near the window.

It seemed that she wanted to talk to me in private too. Away from curious ears and potential interruptions.

The room's location - adjacent to mine rather than in the main family wing - suggested she'd deliberately positioned herself near me during my recovery. Sacrificing comfort for proximity in case I needed her.

"What's up, mom? Tell me. I could hear your heart beating so fast. Are you hiding something horrible from me?" I asked directly. Concern mounted as I observed her nervous movements.

My enhanced werewolf hearing had indeed detected her accelerated heartbeat. A physiological sign of anxiety that concerned me given her typically calm demeanor.

I kept my eyes on her movements as she walked purposefully to a wooden drawer. Her fingers hesitated momentarily before pulling it open.

"Whatever it is, we can face it together," I assured her. I tried to project confidence despite my growing apprehension. "I'm stronger than I look after all these months of physical therapy."

My attempt at humor fell flat as she turned back to me. Her expression was grave despite her attempt at a reassuring smile.

She walked back with a substantial bundle of envelopes in her hands. The collection was bound together with simple twine.

Without explanation, she handed the package to me. The weight of accumulated correspondence was substantial in my palms.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to read Sunny's letters," she began apologetically. Her expression revealed genuine regret for the invasion of privacy.

"But when you were in a coma, something compelled me to open them. I felt guilty for allowing her to live so far away at that school. And I wanted to understand how she was doing."

Her explanation seemed reasonable on the surface. Though I sensed deeper motivations she wasn't yet sharing.

She paced nervously before continuing. "What's in those letters was meant to be for you only. But--" she paused abruptly. She seemed to struggle to find appropriate words for whatever revelation awaited me in those pages.

She sighed with evident distress before finally completing her thought.

"But honestly, if I hadn't checked these letters a year ago, I guess Sunny would be dead by now."

The blunt statement landed like a physical blow. It confirmed my worst fears about Sunny's experiences during our separation.

The implication that she had been in life-threatening danger created immediate protective rage alongside crushing guilt that I hadn't been there to prevent her suffering.

"Dead?" I repeated incredulously. My fingers tightened around the bundle of letters. "What exactly happened to her at that school? Who hurt her?"

My questions emerged more forcefully than intended. My control slipped as protective instincts surged to the forefront.

I immediately pulled the letters from their binding and opened the first one. I was eager to understand the experiences Sunny had endured in my absence.

The paper felt delicate between my fingers. A physical connection to her thoughts and feelings during our years apart.

My mom started to offer assistance. Clearly forgetting momentarily about my supposed disability.

"Let me help you to read--" she began before gasping audibly as realization dawned.

"Oh my God! You can see?" Her shock was evident in her widened eyes and suddenly elevated heartbeat. Her hand flew to her mouth in astonishment.

The instinctive reaction confirmed I'd revealed my secret through careless action rather than deliberate choice.

Fuck! I forgot to maintain my blind persona in my eagerness to read Sunny's letters!

The mistake frustrated me. After successfully maintaining the pretense for days, I'd exposed myself through a moment of distraction.

I scrunched my nose apologetically. I offered a sheepish smile as I acknowledged the truth.

"Mom, let's keep it a secret for now," I requested. I hoped she would understand my reasons without extensive explanation.

Her expression reflected confusion rather than anger at my deception. Her head tilted slightly as she processed this unexpected development.

"I'll explain everything later," I promised. "But right now, these letters are more important."

She blinked repeatedly. Clearly struggling to reconcile this new information with her understanding of my condition.

She settled beside me slowly on the edge of the bed. Her movement was cautious as though approaching something fragile.

"Juan! What are you aiming for with this deception?" she asked directly. Her tone was more curious than accusatory.

The straightforward question deserved an equally honest answer. Though I wasn't entirely sure of my own motivations beyond a vague sense that observation without others' knowledge provided valuable insights.

"Why pretend to be blind when your sight has returned? What purpose does that serve?"

Her questions were reasonable. The deception seemed increasingly pointless even to me.

I shrugged helplessly. Unable to articulate a completely rational explanation for my behavior.

"I don't know honestly. At least for now," I admitted. I leaned my head against her shoulder in a gesture reminiscent of childhood moments seeking comfort.

"It started as shock. I couldn't believe my sight had actually returned and was afraid to announce it in case it disappeared again. Then it became... I don't know... a way to observe without being observed in return?"

The explanation sounded weak even to my own ears.

"I've been vulnerable for so long, Mom. Maybe I needed to feel like I had some advantage. Some control over my situation before revealing everything."

The psychological truth behind my behavior was more complex than I could easily express. Fear of disappointment. Desire for advantage. And uncertainty about how others might change their behavior once they knew I could see them clearly.

She patted my head affectionately. Her fingers combed through my hair as they had countless times during childhood illnesses and disappointments.

The maternal gesture continued down to my shoulders. A soothing motion that conveyed understanding without words.

"It's okay son. I'm glad that you're fine now. I'm with you on everything," she assured me. Her support was unwavering despite my deception.

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