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Chapter 33

Isabella's POV

I had absolutely no idea what would happen next and what Nathan's reaction would be after he discovered the truth about everything. I mean, how could I even begin to predict something like this?

"Nathan, I just... I don't know how you're going to take this," I whispered, my voice trembling with uncertainty. "I've been keeping this from you, and I hate myself for it."

I couldn't believe that my father -- the same man I had blamed and resented for almost my entire life for supposedly abandoning me -- had actually been searching for me all this time!

It was like my whole world had been turned completely upside down in just a matter of minutes. "He never stopped looking for me," I said aloud, still trying to process this revelation myself.

"All those years I thought he didn't care, he was actually out there trying to find me." My father wasn't just passively searching for me either; he had started an all-out war that didn't cease or slow down until the Alpha and the entire leadership line of the Pack were forced to fake their own deaths just to survive.

"The war that destroyed so many lives... it was all because he wanted me back," I added, my voice barely above a whisper.

I was absolutely terrified and worried sick that by this point, Nathan would completely hate me and decide to kick me out of his life forever. The thought of losing him made my chest feel tight and my breathing shallow.

"Please don't hate me," I pleaded silently, watching his face for any sign of what he was thinking. "I can't lose you too, not after everything we've been through together."

He suddenly collapsed onto the couch heavily and placed both of his hands firmly against the back of his head, as if he was experiencing the most intense, drumming headache of his entire life.

The sight of him in such obvious pain made my heart ache. He let out a deep, pained groan and gritted his teeth so hard I could hear them grinding together.

"So you're telling me that all of it -- the war, all that bloodshed, my parents having to fake their deaths and go into hiding -- all of that chaos and destruction was just because of you and your father?!"

His voice was filled with a mixture of anger, disbelief, and something that sounded almost like betrayal.

I found myself nervously fiddling with my fingers, a habit I'd had since childhood whenever I was anxious or scared.

I took a deep, shaky breath, trying to gather every ounce of courage I had left in my body, then forced myself to look directly at him and speak the truth.

"Nathan, I swear to you, I had no idea about any of this," I said, my voice stronger than I felt. "I didn't know my father was looking for me, I didn't know about the war he started, I didn't know any of it.

I don't even know what to say right now because I'm so completely shocked and overwhelmed, but at the same time, I'm kind of amazed that my father actually cared enough to do all of this."

The words tumbled out of me in a rush, and I realized I was rambling, but I couldn't seem to stop myself.

Nathan slowly raised his head and fixed me with the most dull but absolutely deadly gaze I had ever seen in my life, as if he was seriously considering choking me to death at that very moment.

The intensity of his stare made my blood run cold, and I immediately stopped talking, not daring to say another word. "Don't look at me like that," I wanted to say, but the words stuck in my throat.

He let out a bitter scoff and shook his head in complete disbelief, his eyes never leaving mine.

"Isabella, what the hell am I supposed to do with you now?" he asked, his voice low and dangerous. "How am I supposed to handle this situation? You've just completely turned my entire world upside down with this information."

I quickly closed my eyes tightly, trying desperately to block the tears that were threatening to spill over and cascade down my cheeks.

Suddenly, I felt like I had lost absolutely everything in just a single moment, as if fate itself was determined to never allow me to experience true happiness.

"Why does it always have to be like this?" I thought desperately. "Why can't I just have something good without it being taken away?"

In my position, I should have felt overwhelmingly happy and grateful because I had finally realized that my father, at the very least, had always loved me -- unlike my mother who had never shown me any real affection.

"He actually loved me," I whispered to myself. "All this time, he actually loved me."

I should have felt incredibly grateful and blessed that my father had never forgotten about me, not even for a single second, and that he had been willing to go into bloody, devastating wars just to try to bring me back home to him.

But at the exact same time, I was completely and utterly broken-hearted because I was probably about to lose my real mate as a direct result of all of this family drama and pack politics.

"Nathan might never forgive me for this," I thought, the pain in my chest intensifying. "How can he look past all the destruction my family caused his?"

There was so much deep-rooted hatred and animosity between our Pack and my father's Pack -- how could Nathan possibly forget all of that history and accept me as his mate?

"It's impossible," I told myself. "There's just too much bad blood between our families."

Without really thinking about what I was doing, I dropped down to my knees at his feet and frantically wiped away the tears that had speedily betrayed me and were now rolling steadily down my cheeks.

"Nathan, please listen to me," I said in a voice that was thick with emotion and completely choked with sobs.

"You need to know that I was completely content and happy being with you as just a mistress, or even as a simple maid, or as your secret mate -- any of those arrangements would have been enough for me.

I will never, ever forget you or what we've shared together, no matter what happens next. I am so incredibly sorry for causing so much trouble and chaos for your Pack and your family."

I looked up at him through my tears, trying to memorize every detail of his face. "But please, Nathan, try to understand -- if you had been in my father's position, if someone had taken away the person you loved most in the world, you would have done exactly the same thing he did. You would have fought just as hard to get them back."

I gazed at Nathan for what I was certain would be the very last time, trying to burn the image of his face into my memory forever.

Then I slowly stood up on shaky legs, my heart breaking with every movement. I hesitantly reached out and moved my trembling hand to touch his hair one final time, my fingers barely grazing the soft strands.

"Goodbye, Nathan," I whispered, my voice barely audible. "I love you, and I always will, no matter what happens next."

Just as I was about to turn around and walk away from him forever, effectively ending the best thing that had ever happened to me, he suddenly reached out and pulled me forcefully toward him.

His strong arms wrapped tightly around my waist, holding me against his body like he never intended to let me go. "Where the hell do you think you're going?" he snarled, his voice filled with an emotion I couldn't quite identify.

I let out a deep, frustrated sigh and gulped nervously, my heart racing from his unexpected reaction.

"I'm leaving, Nathan," I said, trying to keep my voice steady even though I was falling apart inside. "I think that's probably the best solution for everyone involved. It's better if I just disappear and let you move on with your life without all this drama and complications."

He immediately looked at me with what appeared to be genuine confusion, as if he truly hadn't expected me to say something like that.

"Isabella, are you seriously telling me that you're planning to leave me?" he asked, his voice filled with disbelief. "Why would you even consider doing something like that? Don't you understand what you mean to me?"

I blinked rapidly, trying to process his reaction while fighting back more tears. "Why?" I repeated, almost incredulously.

"Nathan, how can you even ask me that? There was a devastating war between our two Packs that cost countless lives, and I'm pretty sure you don't want me to be here with you anymore after learning the truth about who I really am.

I think you must hate me now, and I know for certain that your parents are going to hate me once they discover my real identity and realize I'm the daughter of their greatest enemy."

His response was immediate and fierce, his voice booming with an intensity that made me jump. "I WOULD NEVER, EVER LET YOU GO!" he declared, his eyes blazing with an emotion so powerful it took my breath away.

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