I stood in the middle of the park in my light dress. I was exhausted. Not from any physical work, not from having fought a battle, not from work, not even from the stress of having to train two twin playful kids, but from having to think every moment of my life. Think of James, think of Justin, and think of how to shuffle my entire life around all these occurrences. In my deep subconscious mind, I wanted to just exist, to float out of reality, into a world only I and I ...