**Jax**

A second later, the door slid open. I didn't need to turn around to know Trent had followed me. He stood beside me. "You good?"

"No." I laughed humorlessly. "I'm not good. I don't think I'll be good ever again." I shook my head. "I don't know how to do this."

"Do what?"

"The whole soulmate thing." I shifted so I was leaning with one arm propped on the railing, and I faced Trent. "How the h*ll did you do it? Everything in me is ...