But my excitement didn't last because as soon as his eyes dropped to my lips, he looked away, pulling back and taking his sweet warmth with him. 

Disappointment twisted like a snake in my guts, but I wouldn't back down. 

Even though it was just my first time seeing this man, I wanted him. He was fire and ice and I wanted him to burn and freeze me. And I always get what I want. I would go an extra mile if it meant getting it. 

My therapist had said it was a coping mechanism, a ...