I wake up in bed with Cal and all the momentum I felt earlier, all the resolve to start focusing on my feelings and needs—it simmers until I feel my crotch throbbing. I…need Cal again. Silently, I reach for him and find him erect in his sleep. I start to run my hand along him and his eyes fly open. He rolls on top of me, grinning, and it’s different this time.

Things were all heated and passionate leaving the work party. We seemed desperate in the kitchen ...