Jordan was sleeping crookedly in his chair, and I still didn't sleep at all, even though I'd been sedated by the nurse, I slept for two hours and then woke up. Since then I've been here, trying to think of everything that's happening in my life, thinking from the beginning of everything, from the discovery of the pregnancy, and even everything looking like it was resolved with this damn marriage, nothing works, the path just seems to narrow more and more.

I close my eyes for a few minutes and ...