I wondered if my life could be even more unstable. I was on two edges of a sword.

I was the happiest woman on the planet, then all of a sudden, I was a little girl who feared for her life.

Was putting my suspicions, fears and thinking aside when I was with him a good way of coping with all this mess? Or was I just postponing a downfall which was going to happen no matter what I did?

Was I making everything worse?

After that night, he ...