"No!" I sounded horrified.

His expression softened. A little. "Then what?"

I screwed up my face. "Rabbi Abrams said if you agreed, he'd find a way to check if Ari is still an initiate."

Rohan laughed bitterly. "Right."

"Wrong." I pushed him down against the mattress, leaning in. "You want to know why I don't tap anymore?"

He frowned at my abrupt topic change. "Why?"

"Remember, I told you about playing Lincoln Center?" Off his nod, I ...